Drawing a line

Today I made a big decision. I've decided to stop talking about my infertility at work. The tension I feel when co-workers are waiting to hear how a procedure went, and when I'll be taking a pregnancy test is just too much to bare. One issue is I'm friends with several co-workers so it makes not talking about infertility really difficult since it is a big focus in my life right now. After my first IUI I realized that after talking to one person about that was enough for all sorts of people to know what's going on with me. Where I work gossip spreads like wildfire. There really isn't anyone I can trust to keep the information in confidence. I think it will be the healthiest thing for me to find my support outside of work.

Infertility is something that is always in the back of your mind, whether you're cleaning the house, watching a movie or driving to work. I need my work place to be somewhere I can go to do my own thing and be distracted from infertility and not reminded of it. If I know all my co-workers are looking at me out of the corner of their eyes wondering what's going on I can never really escape it.

My decision has given me a sense of control over a situation that is, in reality, the opposite. I'd be curious to know how others have handled this situation. Did you talk about your fertility treatments at work? How did you feel when treatment failed and you had to go back to work and face your co-workers?